Sober Me

Sober Me

by Ronnie Freeman

Who knew the choice that he would make
In a moment walk away
Seemed a picture perfect life
Now himself, his kids, his wife are shipwrecked
And what became of faith, was it all a masquerade
Or one day starting to love something more than he loved truth
It was one more phone call chilling me within
Can’t deny the consequence of sin

SOBER ME, SOBER ME
LORD WAKE ME TO THE SHADOWS
THAT ARE CLOSING IN ON ME
IT’S HARD TO SEE THE NIGHTFALL
WHEN IT FALLS SO GRADUALLY
SOBER ME

Desire crouches at my door but I’ve never heard him roar
He’s so silent but so real, he will lie and kill and steal
Lord, keep my soul alert of the many I would hurt
With one foolish choice I’d make, there’s so much at stake
Remind me the most dangerous place to be
Is when I’m thinking it could never happen to me

SOBER ME, SOBER ME
LORD WAKE ME TO THE SHADOWS
THAT ARE CLOSING IN ON ME
IT’S HARD TO SEE THE NIGHTFALL
WHEN IT FALLS SO GRADUALLY
SOBER ME

Lord, I know that You have forgiven me for my sin. I know that when You look at me, You see Jesus because of my faith in Him. I know that you count me as righteous, even though I am unholy. Please help me to remember that the worst place I can be is in the position of thinking that "it," whatever that may be, will never happen to me. Spirit, show me the ways the enemy is attacking me, ever so subtly, like the nightfall coming so slowly that I do not notice on my own. Lord I have so much trouble seeing myself the way You see me. Help me to see me through Your eyes. Help me to live in accordance to the calling of being one of Your disciples. You know my heart. You know my struggles. Give me courage to face the day. Give me strength to never back down. Give me grace to forgive others. Give me love to show You to them. Thank you for Your grace, mercy, forgiveness, and love. You are indescribable, and my words can never do You justice.

To the one who has been hurt by my sin: I know that you are confused and brokenhearted. I cannot express how much sorrow I feel because of what my actions have done to you. My only solace is that I know you have experienced the grace of God, and so the Spirit of God will prompt you to forgive me, even if it takes some time.